Crappy Paintings

I have yet to get to the point where every painting I start is successful. I had sketches for 6 paintings and I was optimistic thinking I'd get 5 good ones. I ended up working on 7 paintings total and came out with a total of 3 that I'm content with.  

Its always disappointing when paintings don't turn out. Sometimes you can look on the bright side and say there was some lesson to be learned, but often times it was just a flawed concept. The image pictured to the right just turned out boring, when set next to the 3 good paintings this one wasn't nearly as good. I tried this purple face concept using a photo of my husband, but it just ended up looking unpleasant. 

In addition to trying the purple face concept a couple of times I also tried using a reference photo a couple times. I asked a facebook friend if I could use this stunning photo of her in a painting, but since then I've really struggled to create anything good from it. Its such a nice image that I wonder if its already being used in its best form as a photo.

I feel that I'm done with this set of paintings. I don't plan on going back and trying out the other concepts again. I'm ready to move on to some imagery that includes more body and less face. 

Lonesome

I wanted to do a painting that illustrates the isolation I feel as someone who works alone. I spend a lot of my 40 hour a week job managing the studio by myself and it gets really lonely. I miss being around people and I also miss living in the same town as my family. 

Lonesome,  30x22", Watercolor on Paper, 2014

Lonesome, 30x22", Watercolor on Paper, 2014

Not sure how I feel about this painting. Up until this painting I haven't really included any props or background items. I would like to do more of this in the future. I will probably end up approaching the empty couch concept again. 

Still Unsighted

In January I decided that I would kick off a new year of art by repainting a favorite from undergrad just to see how much better I could do it 3 years later. I should have posted this sooner, but I procrastinated on getting a quality photo of the newer piece. 

Unsighted,  Watercolor and ink on paper, 21x30, 2011

Unsighted, Watercolor and ink on paper, 21x30, 2011

I did a whole series of blindfolded portraits for my undergraduate senior exhibition. That body of work reflected on an intense anxiety I had about what direction I would go in life after graduation. I was afraid of what life would be like without the structure of being in school. The portrait shown above might have been my 3rd or 4th watercolor painting ever. 

Still Unsighted,  Watercolor on paper, 21x15, 2014

Still Unsighted, Watercolor on paper, 21x15, 2014

There is definitely a technical improvement over the 2011 painting! I'm using more colors in my flesh tone. When you see the new painting next to the old one you see a painfully obvious lack of darker tones in the flesh in 2011. I also ditched the ink outline. 

Its kind of funny that the sentiment of first painting still rings true 3 years later. I still have anxiety about the future. What kind of life do I want, what is important to me, what kind of person do I want to be and how do I get there? My next big life step that I'm absolutely dreading is deciding about having children. Its the new deadline for me and its something that weighs on my just like graduation day did for me during college.